Secular mouth and racist heart

Secular mouth and racist heart

1.2 billion Is the population of India, we have diversity in religion, culture, languages, dialogues. We call ourselves secular, we support only secular political parties, and we greet people who are from other religion - culture - language as "brother". Generally speaking we live in peace and harmony despite of this rich diversity. We believe in Hindu - Muslim Bhai-Bhai, Christians were always welcome in our country, many doesn't know that Shiks are from other religion and others left are also our brothers. But this is the outer shell of the oysters and the inside part in this case is not delicious.

In actual we Indians are the most racist guys probably in the whole world. British ruled for two hundred years not because they were strong but they knew that we are so busy hating each other that British would hardly get notice. We So racist that if somebody detects a slight change in someone's dialogue, then they will hate each other. I think I don't have to illustrate about cast and religious division, internet is filled up with information about cast and community related problems and violence occur in India.

One day some guy told me Indians are like crabs kept in a bowl, crabs will pull each fellow crab's leg who will try to escape the bowl, so eventually none of the crabs will be able to go up the crossing point. Indians are exactly like that, they are jealous of each other so much that they will not allow anyone to go up. If some group of people trying to grow other groups will be threaten by it.

I think the problem occur because of the divisions in our society, suppose we consider the cast system, society is divided into four groups, the Brahmins are greatest human being and Sudhrahs are lucky to be alive. Another very weird situation is with the Bihari guys, Bihar people are the most strong persons who can leave Bihar and can survive anywhere in the world.. They are cheap laborers for those works requires tremendous strength and stamina, so in every place they are threat for the local labours. They are hated by every other group of people.

Racism is so much embedded in our blood that whenever we see some guy of other ethnic background we become judgmental without knowing him. If a guy notices someone wearing white kurta-payjama, long beard, white triangular hat, that's enough for the first guy to judge the other guy either as immigrant or ethnic enemy. In southern India there is complete different war of language, some says their language is greater others says their's one is great and additional spice of religion and cast is always there.

Atheism is the only solution for this situation. Destroy the diversity which we are so proud of and we will be built a new united country. India will no longer be only Republic of India, it will be also Integrated People of India. I don’t expect our previous generation to teach their children not to follow their respective religion but it’s the decision of our generation to take weather to follow the god and be separated or become an atheist and delete all those differences. I am an atheist and don’t believe in idol Gods and my parents are trying to incept some religious crap into my head but I believe in God inside us not is some idol. So pretty damn fact don’t be a secular by not only your mouth but try to avoid racism, hope our next generation won’t be racist and we will create perfect world.

Never Loose Hope

Hope….. it’s a very common behavioural accessory that we all carry on ourselves. We don’t talk about it much but deep down in our conscious we always have hope that whatever is the next episode in our life, will pass on well. I don’t know but nobody taught me this conduct of actions, to keep my hopes on, even if I am in a deep trouble, I hope that beyond this black time period there will be a bright day light waiting for me. I think that hope is like imprinted on our system of reflexes. Hope works just like our well known five senses, whenever there is an occurrence of certain event it responds accordingly to it.

I can’t voice for every living human on this planet but in almost every person’s life he/she will encounter troubles in their life. I always compare this struggle in life to that well known theory of Darwin’s ‘Survival Of The Fittest’. This theory works perfectly for the so called civilised humans as it work in the wild, but the slight difference is that we don’t compete for only food but also power, money etc. and we don’t generally die if we fail. The reason behind why we don’t die if we fail cause we always have hope that it doesn’t matter if we have failed in present but will eventually succeed in achieving our desires.

Let’s have a philosophical representation of hope in our life. I think everyone know about the famous saying ‘For a pessimist the glass is always half empty but for an optimistic the glass is half full’, but I think we can see this example in much better way. An optimistic is a person who has big dreams and high hopes in his life, even though the incoming of water stopped at a point when he was able to achieve only half of his dreams but still he is holding to the hope that one day my glass will be completely filled and I will be at the gates of my destiny. The pessimistic is that person who has lost his hope and has settled for whatever he has. He had suffered, he was week and that’s why he had abundant his dreams, his life is now like stagnant water and it’s hard to keep it beautiful for long.

Whatever I wrote above was all philosophical but I want to give you some real life examples, some people whom I knew in the past. I stayed in Allahabad (India) for four years. There was Allahabad University which is famous to produce maximum numbers of IAS officers in the past and the IAS exams are one of the toughest exams in the world. One guy once told me how a student generally prepares for the exams. The age limit for the exam is 30 yrs and they can appear for only four times in lifetime (my information about the exams can be slightly deficient). So what they generally do is like they complete their graduation at an age of 22 yrs and they continuously prepare for four more years and at an age of 26 yrs they start giving their exams till the age of 30. The point what I want to focus is that they got such determination that doesn’t allows their hope to die. They keep their hopes alive after each big blow in their life.

So whatever you have tolerated in your life was just an experience, you might have cursed your luck for a lot of time, may have doubted your potentials but keep that in mind that there is nothing wrong in you or in your horoscope, it’s all about difficulties in life which everyone in this world have to face. Just keep your dreams on top of your mind and in spite of every problem that little ray of hope will catalyse your vision to it’s proper destination.

My life at ITC Infotech

It's been one year now since I joined ITC Infotech, the day was 16th December 2010 when got the job as IT Consultant. Since that day many things have changed in me and my life. I am writing this blog not to tell you whether to join the company or not but to tell my experience in the company and to give an inside view of how the company utilizes its resources and .

I have done my B.Tech in IT from NIT Allahabad. The package offered was 3.75 lakhs. After I got the job I asked about the job location and probable profile that I will be put in. The answer was like the job location will be Bangalore and the profile depends on the performance during training period. So as everyone I was also excited about having a job in Bangalore and on 22nd July 2011 I joined ITC Infotech. On the first day I filled up a lot of forms, online and on paper both. Next day our induction started, it was mainly information about ITC Ltd., what it does, its products, only thing about ITC Infotech I learned was that it is a subsidiary of ITC and ITC InfoTech’s management structure. The induction process continued for one week which includes English sessions, motivational talks and information about ITC. So after the induction period the whole campus recruit batch was divided into SAP, Siebel, .NET, JAVA, PLM domains. I got .NET and I guess that is the time when my unlucky days kicked in.

We were twenty four guys in .NET and training manager came and gave a big speech about how great this domain is, how many opportunities etc.. Our trainer was Mr. Rao and he was a good trainer and a great guy. I was doing quite well in the training and was expecting a good project after the completion of training. In the middle of our .NET training we were interviewed by some project managers and I don’t know on what basis ten guys were shifted to IOS domain, which was I guess an experimental domain to increase the service domains of ITC Infotech and the guys were their “Lab Rats”. I don’t know it’s my bad luck or what all those guys who were from Kolkata were shifted to IOS domain and this thing affected me later in my career.

So after the completion of thirty days training we were put into another two months training to give us exposure to the real world. At that time we were given small dummy projects to increase our knowledge and I was doing well in that too. Then one day I was informed that a requirement for a trained .NET developer has been made by ITC Infotech, Kolkata branch and they have decided to transfer me to Kolkata because I am from Assam and they don’t have any .NET trained employee from Kolkata, all Kolkata guys were in IOS domain so I was their choice to be sent to Kolkata. I expressed my opinion that I was not willing to leave Bangalore, I was settled there, but when you sign the offer letter after that your comfort ability or opinion does not make any scratch on their decision and I didn’t had the gut to resign at time so I agreed to it. I was told that in Kolkata branch there is some big project they have got and there is an urgent requirement and they gave me a flight ticket of 8^th Nov 2011.

On 8^th Nov 2011 11 PM, I was in front of the gates of the main head office and the HR in Bangalore didn’t inform the HR in Kolkata about my arrival. Before leaving Bangalore the HR gave me the phone number of the HR Kolkata and told me to call him in case of any problem. He expected that I will call the HR in Kolkata and will inform him about my arrival but I don’t understand why he is taking the big salary if I have to do his part of job. As those days I was very frustrated about being transferred form Bangalore, calling the Kolkata HR didn’t crossed my mind. So around midnight on 8^th Nov I was on the streets of such a place which I have never visited in my life and authorities were not aware about me. I called on the phone number which I had and it was my unlucky day, he was out of the town. He gave me few numbers, I made the calls and thank God HRs of Kolkata were not like that of Bangalore. I really admire the HRs here that they made the arrangements for my accommodation in the guest house. The guest house was very good and the food was great, ohh I loved it. The next was my first day in Kolkata office and I reached there exactly on 9 am.

Early morning in the Kolkata office, filled up some forms and then I was sent to the reporting manager of that time. I could not believe what unfortunate thing happened to me again. My reporting manager called a lady and told me that she will be my manager and I followed her to her cubical. She asked me about my training experience and she started to explain me the concepts of SAP. I interrupted her immediately and said “I didn’t sign up for SAP”. I went to my reporting manager and explained him everything then he realized that he mistook me for someone else. Then I was sent to Legacy building, the SMIS team.

The Legacy building, I met the HR and she escorted me to the manager who is in charge of the .NET development in the whole team. He is a nice guy, an NIT alumnus, we talked about my training, my knowledge and what more thing I would have to learn. The real dilemma was that there wasn’t any available cubicle for me so for next one week I used to sit on the reception couch and read a .NET book; mostly I use to roam around and find my way out of the complex network of roads of Kolkata. After one week a cubical on another floor was allotted to me and that was my hole for next three months.

For three months I was on bench, I was frustrated with the city, frustrated with the company, frustrated with everything. Meanwhile two Kolkata guys helped me a lot, at least I use to enjoy the lunch time, ohh ya one thing the lunch in free in Kolkata branch. There wasn’t any day passed when I didn’t come to office with a thought of resigning that very day. It was a very frustrating time for me. Everything I had enthusiasm, excitement, knowledge, dreams, everything was crushed and juiced out of me. I stopped talking to others, just reply when something is asked, stopped laughing on jokes the way I used to laugh earlier. The only work that I used to do then was reading article from news site and Wikipedia. Then the day came when I was assigned a project.

The evening before the my project assignment day my .NET manager call me, I was at home by then and informed me that next day I will be allocated to some project. I was really happy, at last I was going to have some work to do in office. The very next day my .NET manager sends me to another manager and said he will be my reporting manager from now on. I met my new manager, he is a cool guy, a data warehousing manager, he asked me about my training and my area of interest and told me that I will be working on Informatica under him. Now my domain was changed to data warehousing, first location then domain that may remind you of me saying my unlucky days had started. I thought that at least now I will have some work to do. At first it was tricky but not as conceptual and interesting as .NET, slowly I grabbed the concept and it was very easy then. After few days working on the project I got good grasp over the tool and used to finish my assignment long before the deadline. Working on Informatica helped me improving my knowledge in database. But few months later when the work on the project was finished, I had to give support and that means again no work. Once again frustration slowly inched up my mind. I could easily detect symptoms of depression in me. I have faced very worst days in my entire life.

The only good thing about working in SMIS was that all the employees in the team are great, good natured, and funny. Sometime I feel that it is the best environment to work but most of the time only frustration covers my mind. Working in ITC Infotech will reward you with ample amount of time for your social life, the workload is low here but I can’t assure you about career growth. I think it’s a very good company to retire from. Although my .NET training batch mates are working on good projects, those guys whom I used to help during their training days and I am here, still uncertain about my future, good luck you guys, have a successful career. I am still working in ITC Infotech, I have no social life, have no friends, I daily go to office and while coming back I think of the lonely and useless life I am leading.

This was my experience with the company and I don’t say that these things happen with every employee. I just wanted to share my side of the story with others. You decide for yourself what you want to doJ.